"Before I used to not really want to go outside anyway, but I had to go outside so I would."

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"And even that was scary using public transport to get places. I knew that I would always have staff around me.

I knew the rules to follow. And I could follow them. And now that has all changed.

I didn't know what rules to follow, when to follow them how to follow them. And they were changing them enough every day, it seemed.

Like, I don't know what you're supposed to do on buses now. How is that supposed to work?

When I got on the bus, people still seem to be sitting next to each other. So knowing when to follow the rules or when not following the rules is a big issue. It made the world very scary to go out.

Unpredictability was everywhere, which meant I was too scared to leave the home." 

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